Had a semi-serious challenge happen this week. I lost – badly.
Watching the fight, and as Randy pointed out, I was holding back. Significantly.
Personally, I’ve realised I have major issues in the mental department for sparring / duels. Especially when it comes to sparring with swords. Basically, they break down to:
1) Inability to take sword-fighting seriously. It’s a general thing, but it really shows when sparring in tournaments. I don’t necessarily take the entire tournament thing seriously, so I don’t fight to win or go in thinking ‘I will win’.
2) Inability to warm-up fast. I really, really need to work on that – I warm up to fights real slow -it generally takes at least 4 to 5 passes before I’m ready to fight, often 4 to 5 minutes of pre-sparring at full speed with a good opponent before I feel ‘ready’ to fight. I cool down from that mental mode fast too.
3) Not caring – or caring too much. I don’t have a lot of in-between gears, so I’m deathly afraid of making this a ‘serious’ sport – because then I’ll want to take it seriously. It’s better (or so I tell myself) to not care…
Something for me to think about and figure out. It’s definitely something I have to work on if I ever want to get really good at this sport.